It's official. The mid-winter blues have finally affected my blogging. Maybe that's a good thing, I don't know. The weather hasn't been so horrible...just cold. We got a rare glimpse of warm weather last week and it was lovely. Made me want spring to come even sooner. I know, I know, it's coming.
Still, it feels like nothing is going on. I have a case of the humdrums all over the place. Don't know what to cook, don't want to clean up, dragging my feet (BIG TIME) to do school with the boys, hardly whip out my camera lately. Just dull! I feel like I want to rearrange the whole house just to bring some new life to the place.
Today I am deathly ill with a head cold. Rand was home and cleaned up the whole house. He is sick of my "humdrums", I'm sure! :)
I've been struggling with homeschooling majorly. I don't have a lot of "support" in this area so that makes it especially hard. (I have got to find a group or something) Homeschooling is a decision I make and then have to re-make and re-make as we go through the struggles of the year. I'll admit, sometimes I do not want to do it. Sometimes I think Brendan would have more fun at school. Sometimes I think
I would have more fun if he were at school.
A couple weeks ago Brendan got in trouble at Sunday school for talking. He actually got kicked out of his class!! I know he is not a behavior problem or anything like that. I know that he LOVES Sunday school and being with the kids in his class, and learning, etc. He is so excited he has trouble NOT talking. It triggered a real battle inside me though as to whether or not we are doing the right thing by homeschooling. I was feeling burnt out anyway. So Rand and I started talking about it, and what our options would be for him next year entering first grade. We talked about all the pros, like more free time for me, one on one with Wyatt, less stress if we have another baby (I'm not pregnant....don't freak out), etc, etc. Then I start looking into the whole thing, and all the reasons I decided to homeschool start coming at me from every side (even from people who aren't homeschooling). And all my "pros" for sending him off to public school get solved in another way. There is something I LOVE about homeschooling. It is hard, I'll admit, but worth it in so many way. SO MANY!
Anyway, I didn't mean to start going off about homeschooling. I rarely do that here. It's just been on my mind so much lately. So, instead of decide anything crazy in the middle of boring February, I decided to spiff up the school area a bit. I cleaned up the toys, organized some of my things a little better, propped up my gigantic chalkboard, and then painted a huge tree on the wall. The tree was totally random and just happened. I didn't actually paint on the wall....that would have been foolish. I have this huge role of white paper that I taped up and painted away. I had no idea what would come of it. I cut it out and taped it back up and I think I like it. The kids love it and have already made a squirrel nest for the tree and a purple plum. It's starting to feel more springy already. I think I will hang some blooms from that tree and some new green leaves. My humdrums will be gone in no time!