If...

If I was with my mom today I would probably go to her house and she would probably make a fabulous meal. We would sit and talk and go inside and outside soaking in each other as well as the beauty of their home and the lake.
If I was with my mom today we would probably be amongst as many of us as we could possibly gather. There would be talk of games (once the children were in bed) and there would be grumbling about who would and would not participate in the games.
If I was with my mom today we would marvel in the chaos of what is now our family with small children and the burst of energy and noise that comes with them.
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Perhaps this is a "what if" thought that is a thing of the past. Today it would probably look different. And obviously, in reality, I am not with my mom today. But I wish I was. Maybe I would cook her a meal...or plan an outing...or bring over a project to "keep it positive" and distract us from what is our broken family right now.
If I was with my mom today I would give her a hug. And I would hope she knew from my hug that I love her very much and I pray for her every day....and I just know that everything is going to be alright...maybe not as before....but maybe alright just the same.

I hesitate to post a picture from "before", but it's a picture I like. A picture of my mom...the one I know is still there, albeit different. A picture of what I pray for.

Happy Mother's Day, Mom. I hope you feel God's comforting presence and peace to fill you...to heal the empty spots that still ache.